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This is my first journal entry. I’m doing this because my girlfriend and I recently decided to go our separate ways.

I asked her what she thinks I need for myself. She said that I need to live on my own, travel, and to start journaling, even though I’ve never seen her journal so I don’t know where that came from. Maybe because she knows my mental health isn’t great right now. It’s something I’ve been working on all my life to be honest.

I recently discovered the incredible and indescribable benefits of sacred mushrooms. They just make you feel like we are all connected in a way that cannot be explained to someone who has never experienced it. The similarities in imagery between neuron connections in the brain and mycelium networks is too much to ignore. The more and more research I do on modern medicine makes me believe it was only invented as a profit machine, not truly meant to help people. Don’t get me wrong, Western medicine has certainly made incredible advancements and saved millions of lives, but it is no better than the military industrial complex in my opinion. 

Okay, rant over. I lemon tekked about 2g 20 min ago and am starting to feel them. I am going to come back later. TNT (Til next Time) – Nick

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