Complete Serenity

In the past psychedelics were a recreational drug for me, but after my most recent experience I realized that they are not a recreational but rather a sacrament that brings me close to my higher power. This was my first time taking a macro-dose on my own. I started my day by going to the gym and doing a nice workout. I got back home around 12:30pm and had an Orgain protein shake because I didn’t have a huge appetite after doing my workout. I had recently gotten some micro dose capsules and wanted to see if they were effective. Around 1:55pm I took 2 grams of Golden Teachers. I was just relaxing and listening to music and not really expecting much of an effect. I had taken microdoses from a different source in the past and attempted to macro dose but to no avail. Around 2:30pm I noticed my vision starting to look shifty and colors were much more vibrant. I went into the front room of my house and laid on a day bed that had the sun shining on it. The sun felt so therapeutic on my skin. I laid there for several minutes just enjoying the sun. I decided to close my eyes and I couldn’t believe that it was actually brighter when my eyes were closed. I began to have closed eye visuals that started as very sharp geometric patterns. They patterns had a sharp edged on them the pointed toward me, almost like looking at a pyramid from the top. They almost resembled swords crossing over one another. The colors started out on the darker side. There were reds, oranges, yellows, and silver. I just went with the flow and allowed the visuals to do what they wanted. As I relaxed more, the patterns became more organic looking. The sharp edges began to soften and started having a floral look to them. The colors became much brighter and visually beautiful. What I got out of this was that the sharper edges were “my guard” and when they softened into floral designs, that was me letting my guard down and allowing the mushrooms guide me to where I needed to go. After laying there for some time I got up and went to my bedroom to listen to some music. I asked AI what the best music would be for me to listen to at that moment and I gave it some examples of artists that I enjoyed. I was amazed by the music that was recommended to me. I was able to discover Ott, Entheogenic, Bluetech, Shulman, Desert Dwellers and many more. I put G-Force visualizer on my television screen and just sat there in amazement. I dont know if it was the actual visualizer or it was my mind, but I kept seeing Hanuman. Hanuman has helped me through a lot of hard times, and I believe he wanted to show up during a more appropriate spiritual time in my life. The serenity and peace were something that I have never felt before. As a person with anxiety, depression, epilepsy and some other things, it’s hard to feel relaxed. I realized during my serene moment that the serenity was not in the mushrooms that I ingested, but rather inside me already. I have to power to find that peaceful place in my heart and soul. Our bodies are so tuned to be going going going going but we never really get told how to look inside ourselves and find our inner peace. I have quite a different outlook on life just after having one spiritual awakening. I never really set an intention during this experience, but I plan on going on another journey with intentions from my heart. There is nothing more therapeutic than being able to quiet our brains enough to hear what we as individuals need to help us in our daily live. The world seems like it is in turmoil but my mind is not. I am so grateful to have found a place where I can journal and keep track of my experiences.